Thursday, December 27, 2007
woo. been long time since i sat down silently alone here and write something for u.. well tmonths . yea 5 months
5months we been tgt for 5 months! and i felt like i have been with u for very long.maybe because we don't hide things?and we discuss most of anything?
last night was like a flashback night to me , i couldn't sleep at all, iso i played thru that night.irmbed once that u told me this, which is yr last bf,
u told me he always ignore u.he apologise again and again and when u are upset.do t again den apologise, u two always qurrael before of this and always
disappoint.. i know u are hurt that time..he always promise things and yet he didn't do it. everytime he beg to u to forgive , u will get soft hearted and forgive him
i always keep in mind of this things .. i don't wan u to get hurt nor disappointed .. i always care of u .. think of u first.. every bookout come look for u ,so u won't
get ignored... calleed u almost everynight when i am in camp . . .
You 're my First true love. i want you to be happy, i don't mind us eating food food and great shoppings , so long as you're happy. but i don't understand why making you happy would be a mistake to come between us.why can't u guide me along this learning path to the things u hoped for me to learn? instead , why do you think leavig me is the hardway. i'm being impse a image of a toy. where no feelings are concerned now... i gave up lots of things for u if u haven't notice... a manager? give up all my time for u ? give up my closest friend and ignore them to show concern for u ? where there is a home i can go back but i still went to yrs instead? spend almost all my money on u and for our meals? we eat good we shop good... u wonder why never i not let u buy anything u wanted? that becos u told me that.. in singapore.. there is very few things u will like and " kan shan yan ".that why almost everything u wanted i buy for u and try to pay for u ... rmb this few months i am always on low $$ cos i spent on us if u nv notice . u always say i nv think for furture... money i spend is all on u and us , all for your joy..
my friend there asked me this 4 questions. i tot of it last night ... which i think i should share with u ..
are u missing her , - yes i am missing her... i miss her everything.
or are u hating her , - hate? no i hate myself of not learning. but for myself i have my " nan chu" to nt to lear
or do u just need a accompany , - i don't know
or was it that u just not xi guan , - xi guan , everytime i went to camp . i start to think abt when can i book out , and when i book out what can i do for her , is not xi bu xi guan de problem .. i want her to be with me..thats all
there is something which i want to tell u . " everything i spend money , its always on her . i don't know if its right to say . its selfish for u to comment me that i am spending money randomly..if u are saying me sepdning money randomly, den u are the randomly we are talking abt. u only think for ur own.. why are u repeatly telling me to learn and yet why can't u learn with me.
thats all i gonna say...
GodLike! - |5:31 PM|
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