亸亸亸

2008-11-24T00:55:00.000-08:00

birthday gal

2008-08-06T08:49:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

LOVELY PICTURES !!

2008-08-05T07:11:00.000-07:00

Love this day

2008-08-02T13:16:00.002-07:00

Love this day with my dear :) we went M.square to see fireworks :) . yup i planned it dear . haha . Ku yi don't tell u haha . den this morning tell u :) ... Booo ! .
had a "so~so" lunch at M.square tgt at lvl 3 or 4 can't rmb.. haha not nice de lor . see pic nice nia. haha ..
Sudden recall that ming tuck also involve in NDP . can go see him while he duty .. who knows we kena bluff . we reach at 4pm ... den i call him . u know what ? he say he now off duty .. at somewhere else haix.. o ya btw its at flyer where he needs to do his duty.. his duty was .from morning till 3pm den 2 hours break till 5pm . 5pm~10:30pm. .. . tmDDEEEE soooo suay .. we reach at 4pm . tio bluff hahahha nvm ..
we went to kai kai again haha at M.square .hahah halfway thru we went sweesen to eat. i saw this logo . " i am so going to sweesen " wat the Heck is this sentence meansh hahah . nvm forget it den we go kai kai . haha. try many clothes haha dear la. ask me try one like ah pek de lor !!!!!! Roar !. but we also saw many hoodies de clothes quite nice.. while trying tou tou take pic haha...haha . was aT ZARA . ! haha . saw many nice nice clothes haha..
shopping till leg very tired haha went to sit down at one corner haha . chill awhile den .. 6pm le! .
we went to book place to settle down to see fire works HAHA ! BOO! soo many pppl lo haha . and many babies and children haha . dear likes to see baby . haha . we sat down at one place which is good view !! haha guess what >sitting beside US IS 3 little cute babies haha .. so cute . at first i tot was 3 bOI! haha . i pa jiao haha till dear told me one of it was a ger ger haha so funny they ate the nugget hehe . .
BOO BOO BOO BOO BOOM BOOOM BOOMM BOOMMOBMOBMOBMOBMOBM Here COmes THE FIRE WORKS wooo sooo nice.. ahhaha .. always wanted to see fireworks with my gf :) who knows its huiyi :):) .. very sweet :) .. i took many pic haha and video also ... YA loR VIDEO ! OH my TIAN .. Stupid bert . keep calling. call someone at the wrong time when i was taking video of the fireworks haha . 2 TIME lo hahahahhahahaha ....
fireworks was very very nice. .. made dear soo happy today haha . she happy = i happy :)
haha . too much work to do and my ns stuff.. finally got some time with her :) love u laopo :)

laopo posting for u

2008-07-11T07:33:00.001-07:00

field camp . field camp . field camp

training . training . training

sweat .sweat .sweat

pompom . pompom . pompom

eat . eat . eat

secretly sms . sms. sms

yes sir . yes sir . yes sir

i know he is tired.

and

we are waiting for SUNDAY !!!

>.<

=D

2008-06-30T02:05:00.000-07:00

Nooo

2008-06-26T19:30:00.001-07:00

"as u see, i know many instruments, however, sometimes i wish i could teach higher grade of students. it takes more time to speicialize in one particular instrument, though ..."

WO AI NI

2008-06-22T22:26:00.000-07:00

WOooo :D

2008-05-07T00:28:00.000-07:00

BIGBIG Cj7 lol Pai Sei sia carry it from taiwan airport to singapore changi airport .. DANG..

new love

2008-02-13T21:35:00.000-08:00

haha :) no Doubt me and dephne are in pair now :) all it started at hongkong here :X
don't ask me why today . i dont know either ... it happen last night 11:44pm ..shes my working Co li and now my gf .. ya la see la .stupid hui yi . say say say .. u win ROAR
its valentine day 's afternoon le now waiting for her to bath den go out kai kai .... haha up date later :)

updates

2008-01-24T00:01:00.001-08:00

tears will dry,
love will die.
time is like an antidote,
as well as a poison that i am taking now.

2008-01-22T09:52:00.001-08:00

wad a day...
i went kbox with glen n kenneth...
well,
jus sing sing and sing...
nothing realli special yesterday...
den we play lan game...
with another glen frend...
yeah...
den kenneth went buy herbal tea for her gf coz gf sick...
den meet us...
aww,
hes so sweet...
well,
it reminds mi of the past...
memories.

going to church soon...
with amanda my ah ma...
update again bah...

well,
i discover that kbox their MTV videos are so fake..
yeah....
oh well...
i think anjing by jay chou rox...
yea,
his lyrics...
rick`s heaven knows...
also...
oh ya..
i got a sucky voice...

hmmm,
singing those emo soul songs make mi realise something...

Love is not obsession.
If i truly love her,
i should let her go find her happiness.
If she return in time,
we are meant to be together.

:o

2008-01-22T09:49:00.000-08:00

oh!
i went hope church today!
with amanda ah ma,
well...
she didnt tell mi all is gals...
okie...
initially i feel pretty odd...
but,
they are all very frendly!!!
though i cant realli remember all the names...
i try k?
hmm...
jenny ask mi something...
she ask mi why i cant accept back God..
seriously,
i dun noe...
the fact that i accepted him once..
i noe his there..
but i jus denied myself...
hais...
i guess i m forever like this...
perhaps,
i need to untie my knots in my heart first...
oh well,
i like the atmosphere there...
not as pressuring as chc....

jus hope God gives me a second chance to make things right...

tired...
time to rest...tmr,
still got work....
life goes on...

don't want to dream

2008-01-22T09:48:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna dream,
or even fall asleep.
Cause the feeling for you,
It's in to deep.

I long for just one kiss,
and dream of your touch.
And when I come back to reality,
the distance is too much

I walk around everyday,
Love heavy on my heart.
Ive always felt this way for you,
I've felt it from the start.

Everyday I picture you,
holding me so near.
And then remember where your really are,
And shed my silent tear

k la. gtg to slp :)

roar

2008-01-21T23:01:00.000-08:00

woke up pretty early this morning,
yeah,
same later i will haven night duty.

been pretty guilty to my friends,
i didnt care about work.
doing my stuff @ my workplace.
nvm.
been sleeping pretty often,
yeah...
having weird dreams,
i experience that chest contraction around my heart quite recently,
guanzhong ask mi go see wad pycharistrist..
i m not crazy k?!
i jus feel depress recently.

when i know how u carry on when i am gone,
i couldnt forgive myself,
when i hurt you the second time,
i hate myself.

no more love,
no more trust.

only a thief,
stealing her memories,
putting in my heart.

yeah,
i noe a lot of good frends recently..
some accompany mi emo...
some nv fails to try to make me happy...
some cares for mi a lot but dun wan to say it out...
some brothers bring mi go hav fun...
some willingly to sacrifice her sleep jus to ensure i am ok...
some jus make me forget all the worries...
some accompany me when i am alone...
some encourage me to walk on bravely and let go...

i had a promise for myself to hold.

yeah,
if next time i feeling depress or emo,
plse wake me up k?

so much beautiful things around me,
but i didnt see...

ahh,
my fingers bleed...
blisters too...
i shldnt give up making so easily.
be careful nx time bah

k la...
time to do my stuffs.
a random update onli...

lost of feelings recently.

When i am leaving Whaha

2008-01-13T23:49:00.001-08:00

O Well ... u know army have to go burnei for fieldcamp isn't it ? haha i skipped! !! Cool HUH ?

they are going at 2 march 2008... and another taiwan de at april 27 i think...

14 FEB 2008 !! ! OFF TO HONGKONG WEEEEEEE no time for anything in singapore now.. its time for me to get relax .. stressed in sg for many years. and recently things.. u know :) ... i rmbed that time during in camp .. i was looking in the sky dreaming lolx . i saw this shooting star ... first time SEEING IT.. i made a Wish to it ...

haha grow so big nv see before shooting star.. it went pass FAST ! omg. lol the moment it pass i 1st thing think of my mind is this ...

" i wish i may get someone i like , someone she like me , willing to walk thru this life with me "

Planned

2008-01-13T23:11:00.000-08:00

i have counted.. woo .. another 1year and 5 months to go.. before i can leave this saddist place.. Tired.. scared. dunno .. OFF to UK/ CA / HK still not cfm .. waiting for confirmation.. i hope i can get it .. Praise the Lord !

New Family Member

2008-01-13T20:56:00.000-08:00

WEEEEEEE .. first of all welcome Eileen to the family haahaa.. must be wondering who is that ? who is she ? lolx .. me and my bro went to old fork home today .. don't ask me why. ask the idiot that plan today outings :X .. o well as me and my bro was entertainting to one of the old man .. here comes a lady .. she offered us something to do for her.. we fixed her fan .. fix her tv . fixed her room and tidy up haha.. as we were doing we have lots of fun .... first time feeling so fun to be with my bro .. though hes not my real bro .. i had FUN :) .. ...and well after that .. we finished everything and abt to leave.. here come no WHERE a DOG!!! lol !! she came following everywhere we went .. den i picked her up and put her on the table ... and walk off lol .. den we went to next ROOM lol .. SHE CAME!! OMFG... at that moment that old lady which we helped .. tell us that.. u guys can keep that dog if u want to.. without 2nd though i accepted it lol ... shes soo cute.... she just made my day :) .. that old lady told us that dog has no name . so we named it Eileen :)

:)

2008-01-13T03:04:00.001-08:00

Love Relationship is just like chewing gum , the taste fades when times get longer.

dang..!?

2007-12-29T18:48:00.000-08:00

today . my dad comes and fetch me from work.. which is at bugis... he took a different road home today..i was suprise that he brought me over to my bro working place which is very very very WU LU and next later on he showed me where he use to work last time.. i am confuse what is he hinting me.. he wants me to know wherethey work and compare to where i work? tells me my work is much way better and its at its best already telling tat dont give up like this? MAN i DON"T KNOW...

really?

2007-12-29T18:46:00.000-08:00

O well .. my dad talked to me again.. this time round something hits me.... he told me that my this mum has been worrying abt me ever since i was wif tiffany .. i was suprised.. hmm suprised? cos she actually care for me.. i tot she didn't care .. after thinking abt it .. i get over with no have a gf anymore... life has to go on . haha .maybe my mum want to make me forget the feeling of beening taken away from my mum since 3.. i dont know .. Just Felt Like it ba..

at last

2007-12-29T18:43:00.000-08:00

As these few days pass by u had learn more abt responsibility.. every thing i do may led to something . i have think of it already... i going to finish my ns first den go carry on with my studies.. i looked into the course already .. i mean just now as i was blogging halfway hahaha..there isn't any course i wanted.. i don't know where the look for an oversea ones.. haha . i waiting for my friend to show me.. well.. i am sure going oversea already.haha guys take care :)

Woot..

2007-12-29T18:38:00.000-08:00

OMG..my dad is... dot .. i don't know what to say .. u know what he told me ? ... he asked me to get a sg IC so that he can change our house name under me and my bro's .. i was like .. WTF!? .. i looked at my dad expression when he told me .. he was like BU SHE DE.. de feeling..look like he wanted to cry .. i never had seen my dad tears at all before .. even my mum pass away i didnt see it as well.. maybe he hide one place and tears? i don't know ... FUCK la.now i got two house in hand... why 2?one of it was to made for a present for xmas ..had paid 60k for the first installment alreadt .. lucky i can managed to get it back. haix..now one more ... STRESSED.. lol .. i am lucky or blessed? the more i want to be normal ..it seems lke its coming more and more humorous... wtf la .. is this a dream ? COME ON WAke mE UP

lols finally?

2007-12-29T18:32:00.000-08:00

haha.... now and u guys knows why i always skip classes like no father business liao.. cos of work .. during my ite time. i also had no time for myself .. mainly work .. if got time i go shell with my old school mate.. thats only in the night . but day time.. work work work . its not easy to be a GM every single things goes wrong u are in trouble.. i do things have to be careful ... i had kept this secret for 7 years i guess... i only started telling when i was with tiffany.. i tot by telling her so that i got nothing to hide from her .. but there is still something which i still didn't tell her till now when we break up .. wow blog is really something which i can say everything i want without telling by mouth haha... the thing is which i hide from her was... i want to live like normal like my m.o.b
friend .. not from a silver spoon child.. i want to be normal thats all. i don't want to take a single cent from home .. even if i use up all the money that SAF gave me .. even i owe my friend money.. i hope they understand...

2007-12-27T17:33:00.000-08:00

haha what am i thinking . god. lol ..... her? i am crazy abt her . haha.. but not anymore. ...
ARGHH bullshit.. what not anymore ... everytime i quiet down and do something my mind will starting to think abt her already ... dam it.... TIME ALL IT TAKE IS TIME... when time goes by .. i will forget her... or maybe i found another true love perhaps? haha who knows...
aiyo ..... Too much la too much la.... i mean Work.... hahaha ... true that no one knows what am i . what i do ... this day here i am here to write it here... i been keeping it to myself not letting anyone to know . u know why ? .. this is human living earth ... money ? who dun want.. i am afraid to tell this out... but there is something called BLOG haha . which i can say any thing out.. where by i relief out all my stress and secrets.

M.r wongkangkit general manager Executive . well. .scarly huh ? wtf? wat THE? .. yea everytime u guys ask me where u go sia mia so long . i will say i go work...and ask .. work where??? i tell them ...helping my mum.... its true that i got a 2nd mum ... i mean which i was helping is my real mum ... i been helping her to do accountings .. but shes seldom come to sg .. her house stays at HK ... everytime she comes to sg . i wanted to live with her.. but afraiding that my dad will get fed up ... everytime they met they will qurral... haix .. i don't know why ....
till 2years ago .. nov 11 2005 she passed away .. without saying anything .. i got this news from my 2nd mum ... i wanted to punch my dad when i heard this ... he dragged soooo god dam long to tell me this .... haix.. i was taken away from my mum since 3 .. tats why i come to sg at 3..

haha u guys must be wondering what am i doing . WOW GM sia ... actually is nothing .. gm also human ... gm also got feeling .. i dun want to tell cos i afraid that ppl will start coming up to make friends COS OF the MONEY!. i watch tv .. maybe i watch too much . i am just afraid .. no one tells me to keep it a secret .. but i did.... my dad knows my real mum 's job .. but he nv cares abt it .. it sux ? maybe .. haha .... i wanted to tell everyone wat am i . but i can't ... i have problem with my health .. i afraid that i will go just like my mum did .. everyone is afraid of die. no joke...

well i work .. i work under gh .(goldheart)
360, Orchard Road, #01-18, International Building, Singapore 238869
and also bugiss and also jurongpoint . i ran over to all this places to work .. i do things. i sign things. i handle things.... wat else can i do .. i stress things. i think of someting new.. bah .. bah . headache ... if u are in my shoes u will know how i feel ... afraiding someone will step over yr head? ... thats one of it. . afraid that there will be something that which i can't handle that i need help.... everytime i am in trouble with something my real mum will help me to solve me tell me what is best...... but now shes gone . i got no one to seek help ... it SUX ... i always go emo one corner or go calvin house pretenting i playing game....
when i was with tiffany tat time .... from the start i already know whats the " Huo guo " when i decide to do this.....

what i did was i wanted to be with tiffany using my own money ... my own money as in NS pay.. i dun want to take a single money from my house.. i believe i did it. till that day we break up .. i still didn't use any money... i want to use a normal guy statue to be with her... she always say . i got things which hide from her. ya maybe this one bah ..

now more fuck up.... why ? ..... u know i didn't tell anyone abt my job.. .. and now . i start telling it out .. what pppl will think ? " talk cock la ... what gm sia .. if u hm i god liao" ... i know someone will think of this but u knw what i don't care...

i finally wake up

2007-12-27T17:32:00.000-08:00

i also been drinking this few days....i want to forget abt u thats why i drink . i try again and try .. till ytd ... i finally woke up . and i finally slp after that .. i finally know what to desceribe wat feeling was that during this few day...which is Bear .. i can't bear to lose u .... as i said ya. ya i finally woke up ...wake up already..... i know what is wrong with me now . haha ... i been doing nothing since the day i step in my office ... staring in to airs... haha ... Goal! well .. i set my goal of living again !! and today here i wake up in the morning i don't have that suxy feeling anymore... : ) Life has to go on .. hey ... sry abt that night of what i did .. i realise that was stupid and irrating .. i don't know what i am doing either ... i promise i wont do it again haha .... speaking abt promise ... :) i still hold promises to u ... " if u are nt married on the 30 .. i will marry u" haha anyway gtg now ... thing for me to do is too much ....maybe we can come out someother day or maybe count day that day haha see u

Somethings which i want to tell her

2007-12-27T17:31:00.000-08:00

woo. been long time since i sat down silently alone here and write something for u.. well tmonths . yea 5 months
5months we been tgt for 5 months! and i felt like i have been with u for very long.maybe because we don't hide things?and we discuss most of anything?
last night was like a flashback night to me , i couldn't sleep at all, iso i played thru that night.irmbed once that u told me this, which is yr last bf,
u told me he always ignore u.he apologise again and again and when u are upset.do t again den apologise, u two always qurrael before of this and always
disappoint.. i know u are hurt that time..he always promise things and yet he didn't do it. everytime he beg to u to forgive , u will get soft hearted and forgive him
i always keep in mind of this things .. i don't wan u to get hurt nor disappointed .. i always care of u .. think of u first.. every bookout come look for u ,so u won't
get ignored... calleed u almost everynight when i am in camp . . .
You 're my First true love. i want you to be happy, i don't mind us eating food food and great shoppings , so long as you're happy. but i don't understand why making you happy would be a mistake to come between us.why can't u guide me along this learning path to the things u hoped for me to learn? instead , why do you think leavig me is the hardway. i'm being impse a image of a toy. where no feelings are concerned now... i gave up lots of things for u if u haven't notice... a manager? give up all my time for u ? give up my closest friend and ignore them to show concern for u ? where there is a home i can go back but i still went to yrs instead? spend almost all my money on u and for our meals? we eat good we shop good... u wonder why never i not let u buy anything u wanted? that becos u told me that.. in singapore.. there is very few things u will like and " kan shan yan ".that why almost everything u wanted i buy for u and try to pay for u ... rmb this few months i am always on low $$ cos i spent on us if u nv notice . u always say i nv think for furture... money i spend is all on u and us , all for your joy..
my friend there asked me this 4 questions. i tot of it last night ... which i think i should share with u ..
are u missing her , - yes i am missing her... i miss her everything.
or are u hating her , - hate? no i hate myself of not learning. but for myself i have my " nan chu" to nt to lear
or do u just need a accompany , - i don't know
or was it that u just not xi guan , - xi guan , everytime i went to camp . i start to think abt when can i book out , and when i book out what can i do for her , is not xi bu xi guan de problem .. i want her to be with me..thats all

there is something which i want to tell u . " everything i spend money , its always on her . i don't know if its right to say . its selfish for u to comment me that i am spending money randomly..if u are saying me sepdning money randomly, den u are the randomly we are talking abt. u only think for ur own.. why are u repeatly telling me to learn and yet why can't u learn with me.
thats all i gonna say...

亸亸亸亸

2007-12-25T21:16:00.001-08:00

can u see this

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2007-12-25T20:14:00.001-08:00

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